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fucking hell i'm glad you're okay now or ""okay"" when can you have visitors? same kinda thing. i got stabbed a couple times a few months ago and they reopened. one of them was an artery, so i need a new carpet. sucks. turns out i can heal myself now though so i managed to not die. hang on let me just

[he sends a picture of scout and scarlet for brendan, scout laying on his side asleep and scarlet sitting next to his paws, also asleep.]

they'll probably let me have visitors around the 12th. my healing factor isn't working anymore so my immune system isn't up to human contact right now. and i keep falling asleep without meaning to anyway so i'm not the most talkative guy.

even with healing powers i'm amazed you're not dead. are you sure you're alright?

ah, the furchildren. have they been okay? scarlet's grumpy when she doesn't get her turkey treats before bed.

i'll keep that in mind until then i'll do my best to give you a constant supply of scout and scarlet pics i think so. the wounds have closed and i guess the blood came back? i don't know how it works. i slept a lot and ate bunch after and i feel back to normal i probably should go to hospital eventually oh yes i found that out the hard way i have plenty ready for her so she won't miss out again

thanks. you're a pal, arch.

that's not how blood works for normal people but i'm glad you're alive. this was a rough ride.

why haven't you gone to the hospital already? you could still die from an infection or something. shit, archie, don't you realize how many people care about you? this is your version of pipebombs, you know that.

[Guess who's extra honest on painkillers?]

i figure it was to do with the power reversing all the damage. originally that artery one got healed by someone with healing powers. she's an actual doctor, too, so i'd imagine she knew how to look out for it.[there's a long pause because he honestly hadn't considered it.]

i hadn't thought that far you're right i'll say hi if they shove me near where you are something something truth bomb

healing =/= regenerating blood. did you not take high school biology

i can't walk yet so i'll be the last to know if you end up on my floor but if i hear you insisting things are fine when they aren't i'll yell SCARLET IS SAD until you let them treat you. sometimes it feels like you're willing to do more things for the animals than for anyone human so it'll probably work

truth IV, i think. it's fucking with my head but i kind of like it.

look apparently my healing can also make people less tired which isn't how energy works either it's weird magic which is now rainbows i don't do that don't worry i know it seems like i am doing it right now but i hadn't thought of the smart smart intelligent points you brought up i just kind of figured it felt okay so i was fine got any more truth bombs for me? i'm enjoying this

okay, you didn't have proof it'd work like normal science. but you didn't have proof your idea of how it works was right either, you just assumed it was going to work out for the best

making bombs felt okay. drinking always feels okay. picking up glass and doing to my hand what my mom used to do to her arms felt fantastic before i got therapy + meds here

i guess my truth bomb is feels fine =/= fine

pretty much yeah i wasn't thinking straight maybe get a hobby that's delicate like doing that? but not making bombs. i feel all of that, kinda. give me a shout if you want me to bring anything down btw. i know hospital food is terrible.

were you thinking at all? sorry, sorry, cheap shot, but you left yourself wide open.

i'm not looking for hobbies these days. hobbies involve interacting with other people.

please tell me you don't feel the familial thing i referenced [Like hell he's going to type the word 'cutting', even in reference to his mom, in here. If one of the nurses saw it he might have to undergo a psychological evaluation. They'd already been discussing it as it was.]

i'm fine. i can't really keep solid foods down right now anyway so i've just been having a lot of vitamin shakes and nutritional smoothie things and they're not half bad tbh

nope. probably because of the blood loss? damn i'm stupid. what if it's like a pack you can just buy then take home and assemble? like a model plane or something? not in the same way. self harm isn't always hurting yourself physically. i won't get into it now.

blood loss makes everyone stupid. see: my attempt to walk home and subsequent death back there. i know for sure now i died back home, by the way. talked to a doctor about it. that's... somethin.

those are completely pointless. i only want to make something if it's useful.

so long as you get into it with a therapist and not in a 'one day, five months from now, i'll consider that option' way but a 'i'll actually do shit' way then i'm okay with this.

yeah no kidding. what about building machinery? like a laptop and fucking around with the circuit boards? i've done that before. my head imploded it was so hard and finicky. it's one of the first things i'm going to talk about. i finally chose some and i'm gonna call them when this power stuff is done.

i don't know what to feel about that. they're talking about making me do a psychological evaluation in here. which i don't need to sign off on since i'm still technically a minor.

too complicated. i fuck it up. i'm only good at making things that hurt people.

if you put it off with that logic, what other lines are you gonna use to push it back?

are you going to be okay with them doing that? counterpoint: make a something that's programmed to send clickbait to everyone i'm busy. i can still heal other people and there's a lot of people that need help, not to mention a lot of other healers have the same power basis with me in that their healing drains their own energy. it is high on my to do list, but not above being an on call healer god it feels weird saying that. you know my medical knowledge is -5.

i don't know. i'm worried that whatever they've got me on trying to patch me up is making me more honest and honesty doesn't usually work out for me. but i don't have a choice if they decide to do it.

you can't keep putting other people before yourself forever, archie. eventually you need to bite this bullet. we've all got to face our bullshit sometime.

Edited (i suck i am made of fail i am a fail elemental) 2017-12-03 07:48 (UTC)

if it's something that's pressing on your mind it probably would've come out one way or another maybe it's better in this situation than if you got super drunk or something well anyway if they start doing shit you're uncomfortable with let me know i'll try and do something. pretend to be your guardian or something.

[not much different from what he's already doing, tbh.]

i know i'll talk to angie again when we meet up for this heal squad thing. she's a highly decorated doctor - if she says i gotta drop everything and fuck off to A&E then i will, but if i can put it off for a couple days then i will. not because i want to. believe me, any other time and i'd be right there regardless.

i don't want to be honest with people i don't know. not like this. it's too soon. i'm going to say something stupid and then they'll lock me up in the pysch ward and you'll hate me.

i just want you to be okay. i'm tired of outliving people. and i'm tired of seeing people find new ways to slowly bury themselves alive.

i won't let anyone lock you up anywhere. i'll break you out on crobat toucannon's nest style with crobat if i gotta don't worry. i know i don't act like it sometimes but i have plenty of reasons to want to live. ...and plenty of people who'd kick the shit outta me for being an ungrateful dumbass.

you're not my legal guardian, you don't get to make that call.

i'd ask if i made the cut as one of the reasons but i'm not sure i could take the answer right now.

but i'm definitely on the list of people who'll kick your ass, just. give me a while to recoup so i can do it. or i could just send you pictures of scarlet looking sad i guess

ughhh that's right everyone needs a guardian here don't they you don't need to worry. i'm working with angela at the moment so i can ask her when she gets back. how's that? (she's someone who would kick my ass if i waited too long)

yeah. you really need to try and remember how this world works since you're living here, you know.

good. since i can't kick your ass my backup plan was going to be flirting with you really hard until you got creeped out enough to promise to go to doctor at the first sign of trouble from now on.

i mean even if i was your legal guardian i'm sure busting down a wall and carrying you away on crobat would still be illegal brendan if you start that shit again i'm blocking you

but then it'd make you a badass father figure as opposed to a creepy kidnapper when the papers reported it.

yeah that's apparently not normal? and the doctors want me to talk to a specialist psychologist about it as an in-patient because with this + my answers to their paperwork thing asking about my drinking, sex life, etc. they're concerned

and i lied A LOT to make myself look better on that thing. imagine if i'd been honest.

okay point didn't you even say yourself that you knew it was weird? well still good maybe something a little more intense than the therapy you get right now will help

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tw for self-injury mention

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