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This is Brendan Frye. If it's urgent, you might have a better chance o' tracking me down on foot. If I'm not answering, chances are I've gotten in over my head with something, not that I'm refusin' to give you the time of day. So leave me some words and I'll get back to you as soon as I don't have a fire to put out.

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why did you think you had to hide it?

i love you. matt loves you. maxie loves you. red and blue love you. other people love you, too. and real love doesn't walk away when all the ugliness we have inside of us comes tumbling out into the light. real love doubles down.

you didn't leave me when you found out all the ways i'm fucked in the head. did you really think i'd ditch you? that i wouldn't want you to get help just like you wanted me to?

i think i just can't see myself as a person any more. not after what i did.

then don't do it for yourself. get help for everybody who loves you if you can't do it for you.

because you're a person to me. to your boyfriend. to others.

and we want you to be okay.

i'm trying for matt and maxie mostly but it's slow going believe me a couple months ago i wouldn't even consider having a therapist's number

i'm not saying you haven't made progress. but the same could be said of me and you still want me to keep trying, right? it's like that. you've got so much potential you're not seeing. it'll suck but it'll get better, i promise.

a couple months ago i would've told you there were no problems vodka and russian literature couldn't solve. but we're all pushing forward. and if i can get better so can you.

i believe in you arch.