my upbringing was very intense and tense, at all times. it didn't let up. i learned to be the same way. i'm sorry. i don't know how else to live my life except by waiting for the next person to screw me over and trying to figure out what lies people are telling because that's how things have always been and
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i don't want to be this way. and i'm trying to do better. but it's hard to rewrite the rules of how the world works and adapt to those after years of being in fight-or-flight mode.
and if none of that makes sense i'm sorry for that, too, sirenito.
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Date: 2017-07-04 06:54 pm (UTC)look
i don't want to be this way. and i'm trying to do better. but it's hard to rewrite the rules of how the world works and adapt to those after years of being in fight-or-flight mode.
and if none of that makes sense i'm sorry for that, too, sirenito.